That ‘feel-good’ moment.

i’m feeling a little overwhelmed, and slightly triumphant right now. i’ve been searching for more information about where to continue my education and am coming up with a lot of positive results. as i’ve said in my previous(1) post, i’m currently going to el centro and really am enjoying my classes there. i think though that i’m beginning to really feel the difference between the education that i’m getting here and the challenging education that i’ve been longing for and fantasizing about for so long. so many fears have kept me from pursuing what has been one of my deepest desires. how will i pay for it, will i pick the right school, and what will i major in? will i be wasting my time by taking classes that won’t benefit my prospective major, will i even make anything of my life once i’ve attained this so elusive prize? and now for the slightly triumphant part, i have at least come to the decision that school is my next attainable goal. and once i begin to think about it in those terms it merely becomes a series of steps to take, not impenetrable ghosties that i can’t even see to fight. more bite sized. and the best part? i believe the little lady has narrowed down a major, ladies and gentlemen. if i study it on my own time and seek it out for my own personal edification, doesn’t that lead me naturally to what i should formally study? i’ve pondered this for a long time and finally seen what has been in front of my face for so long, cultural anthropology. wha- hoo! somebody done seen the light!

somebody’s super-special

well HE-llo. sombody has a blog. and that person is me. ostensibly this should be something that is interesting, candid, real and hopefully, something that others would want to read. right?? how many people do you think post blogs just hoping that no one wants to read it… that's right, nobody.
and now on to buisness. and yes, for all you homestarrunner fans that was a shout-out. i was talking recently, about the general loneliness of people and have come to the, very un-educated and perhaps un-informed- opinion that this very loneliness is the basic need in which religion is founded on. i'm taking an religion course(at the prestigious college, El Centro) and my professor is fond of stating that religion must need a diagnosis and, for it to succeed, a prescription for the cure. and whatever it is that you come to for that prescription is your own business, but i think that the basic need, the basic driving force behind people and their larger understanding of human civilization-religion, is the understanding that something is wanting. we are in effect, finite and incapable of being happy with-out some sort of outside guidance, stimulation, force, etc. i believe that the act of connecting ourselves to others enables us to heal this. and for some, this comes in the form of religion, but the basic healing comes from allowing ourselves to be with others. to learn from them, to bounce ideas off of them, to share life with them. this in effect should be our 'religion'. don't you think?